Well, shit.
Posted in Emo, Friends, Relationships on Jan 6th, 2007
It’s been an interesting week. Besides the daily bullshit, on Wednesday I walked out to my car to head home and when I sat down, much to my surprise, there were three holes in my windshield. My car must have been wandering around on other people’s property without my permission again, because I know my car wasn’t doing anything wrong to be the victim of a horrible BB attack.
Goodbye 100 bucks!
At least my insurance company covers glass, which was a very pleasant surprise. Vandalism sucks, but the $628 dollar bill would have sucked even more had they not covered it…
Cathy seems to have moved on, which is a blessing, and a curse at the same time. I’m happy it’s over but my heart still aches that I got used like I did. The problem is that I let myself get used…and it was okay…even though it sucked so badly. Now that Justine is in my life, I can honestly say that I’m happier now than I’ve been in years, if not the happiest I’ve been EVER. She warms my heart, knows just what to say, knows how to make me laugh when I can’t even smile.
The distance between us, which I thought might be a problem, is most likely the best thing for us to explore what kind of relationship we can and will inevitably have. It allows us to strengthen the connection of the mind, body, and soul, without the sexual connection. Anybody can have sex, not everybody can connect on that upper plain that creates that eternal relationship between minds. Once the mind accepts another inside, it’s easier for the heart to know for sure what feelings are truly overwhelming. And when both the mind and the body are in sync, the soul follows closely behind, naturally.
I’ve started playing with the body’s natural energy again, which is something I never thought I would do again, but Justine, without her even knowing it, has reminded me of what used to make me undeniably happy.
Let’s just get passed Him, as we’re both ready to move on, and He can’t let go, even though She has made it clear through the official channels of the court system, that this needs to stop. It’s getting potentially violent.
Haven’t logged into Entropia in over a week. Not that I’m abandoning the game, there’s just been some other things that have my interest at the moment, and endless skilling on Exo’s and Snable’s in Club Neverdie, isn’t at the top of my list. 
She drools when I play Half Life 2 (one of her favorites) because she’s never seen it the right way. 19 inch widescreen, DVI, at uber res, with all options pumped. It’s purdy lol
Packed up Cathy’s shit last night. Little harder than I had thought it would be, but I found out some interesting information and confirmed it last night. Word on the street is that Teh E had some harrasing phone calls and email’s after my last communication with her about Zie. Cathy also says that she ran into Teh E all the time and like had it out with her 3 or 4 times during the last year. Teh E says she hasn’t heard from Cathy directly in over a year. The question is, which liar is lying. Teh E has absolutely no reason to lie anymore. She’s been out of my life for almost 18 months. The last time I talked to her was when she emailed me saying congrats on the baby and if I needed anything she’d be there. So why would that liar lie? There’s no reason in my eyes. Cathy denies it all.
Well, I found Teh E’s email address in her top drawer last night while clearing her stuff.
If that’s not confirmation enough as to who’s lying, I don’t know what is. I’d thought of her better than that. Which makes this decision I’ve made even easier for me to accept. I never wanted this for Zie though. I hate the conditions she’s living in but it’s for the best I guess.
Until next time. Do anything that I would do.
P.S. Justine is coming over this afternoon! YAY!